Warning: this is a rambling post, just to get some stuff off my mind….
Its not too long ago that I was worried that I would never be able to make it as a decorative artist. When I quit my teaching gig in 2008 little did I know that the economy was going to take a nose dive. Talk about bad timing! Now it seems I don’t know how to keep up. Deadlines push my days along and I have to remind myself how lucky I am that Im able to do what I love day in and day out. Don’t get me wrong, I love painting, but it seems that I get overwhelmed and wonder how I’m going to “get this project finished quick enough” rather than enjoying the ride. Summer seems half way over already (I always feel that the Fourth of July is the height of summer and its down hill to Labor Day) and I haven’t been able to enjoy it.
I was lamenting the other day about how recently I’ve had to disappoint some clients because I can’t meet their schedules because of how much work I have. I take things very personally and want to please everyone. I feel horrible when I hear “oh, that won’t work. We have to have it done by xyz.” I look at my calendar every which way and wish I could add a day here, move that there…but then that would mean I’d have to grow two more arms!
I’ve tossed the idea around about hiring help. The problem is I’m a Perfectionist. I guess it comes from my Grandma Lenehan. Passed down from her to my dad to me. I can’t trust someone else to do something well enough and have to go back and check their work. Is there therapy for that? Oh wait, I don’t have time to go to therapy.
When I opened the studio I had grand plans for its use. Workshops, rental space for fellow artists, open studio weekends, presentations, etc etc. I’ve had to cancel the latest presentation because I was pulling 10 hour days on a project and had zero time to prepare. I’ve also had grand plans for this blog. I just don’t have enough of me to go around.
Perhaps its time to let go of a little and allow someone to help out. Or I may be trying to rush things along. Whenever I get an idea in my head its go-go-go on it. Trouble is I have 10 ideas and I want to go-go-go on all of them at the same time. If only I could let things happen in their time. If anyone out there reading this is a recovering Perfectionist feel free to offer some advice!
So here are some photos of what I’ve been buried in the last few weeks. Thanks for listening!
Woodgrained beams and glazed walls.
Plaster with glaze